This Christmas

And this Christmas will be a very special Christmas for meeeeee (queues the horns)  🎺🎷🎺🎷

Christmas was good to me this year! Although, I didn’t get to spend time with my parents for Christmas or all of my siblings; I had a wonderful time with my brother and his family. My little twin nephews were the highlight of my week. They had me googling every Christmas event available in the metroplex just to make them happy. It warmed my heart every place we went when they told me how great of a time they were having. First stop was Christmas town in Grapevine. The twins loved seeing the decorations and some of their favorite characters in front of some of the shops. But seeing Charlie Brown Christmas decorations had to be their favorite. Thanks to my dad, they are convinced that Charlie Brown Christmas is the best Christmas cartoon but I argued that it was because they hadn’t saw the Grinch!

We visited a very cool neighborhood where all of the houses were extravagantly decorated with themes that had my nephews jumping in excitement. We visited a couple of malls so that my nephews could see the huge Christmas trees and compare which one was better. (Their idea not mine lol) We fed ducks while singing Christmas songs and watched Christmas films every night. I could never get tired of watching movies and cuddling with my stinky boys.

Someone may be reading this thinking this is a pretty pointless Christmas post because everyone celebrates Christmas. But this has been the first time I’ve been in the Christmas spirit in years. The last couple of years have been a bit rough for me. So, I made it my duty to enjoy the holidays and embrace the cheerful memories. Memories of my family being altogether in one home. It’s been a couple years now since we have had the chance to really be together and celebrate. I was so discouraged about holidays that I hadn’t been in the mood. This year my goal was to find peace with myself and to find my happiness. I decided to no longer dwell on things that were out of my control and work on the things that I can control. I’m finding peace and I’m happy. As my sister Shatarra Sade says, you have to protect your peace and your happiness. & I’m protecting mine at all cost. I hope you guys spent time with your loved ones and had a wonderful holiday. Stay blessed and not stressed Queen!

Love Queen Sized Jaz


Pictures from my Christmas week/weekend with my family! 






We also made a pit stop to feed the ducks and sing them Christmas songs lol img_5042

The Christmas Tag

I saw this Christmas tag on another blog and I thought this would be a cool festive way for some of my readers to get to know me.

  1. What is your favorite Christmas Movie/s?

I love Christmas movies and I can’t choose just one, so here’s my top 3 movies. When I was younger Home Alone was by far the best Christmas movie ever. My younger brother and I watched it at least five times every season. Another favorite of mine is The Grinch with Jim Carey. Any child growing up in the late 80’s/early 90’s can appreciate Jim Carey’s greatness. Last but not least Friday After Next. Unlike my children centered movies, there is nothing wrong with a little dirty humor. My siblings and I can quote every word of Friday After Next as if we wrote it ourselves. Definitely one of my favorite movies ever! 

  1. Do you open your presents on Christmas Eve or Christmas morning?

My parents always woke my siblings and I up to open presents at midnight. We had a tradition of watching Christmas movies in our Christmas pajamas eating Christmas cookies (Yes we are a very festive family! Lol) on Christmas Eve.  Then our parents had us in bed by 9 p.m. so we can open gifts by midnight. By the time I was about 11, my siblings and I would just lay awake in bed waiting on midnight to come.

  1. Do you have a favorite Christmas memory?

I don’t think I do. Every Christmas has been special to me and I don’t think any year has topped the last. Of course the gifts are different each year but I still get the same happy feeling every year just being with my family.  😍😍

  1. Favorite festive food?

I don’t have a favorite festive food. I enjoy baking cookies with my family and drinking hot chocolate but nothing special.

  1. Favorite Christmas gift?

My favorite gift is the diamond J pendant my parents bought me when I was about 16. My first digital camera was also one of my favorites. I’ve always been a selfie queen. I came out the womb serving baby! 👸🏾👸🏾💁🏾💁🏾

  1. Favorite Christmas scent?

Hmm. I like the smell of baked goods so I guess I will say gingerbread or maybe just cookies. If I could eat chocolate chip cookies everyday of my life without getting fat, I promise I would!  The smell, the taste! It’s everything.

  1. Do you have any Christmas Eve traditions?

Well I see I was so wrapped up in my Christmas memories that I already answered this in question 2. Yes, my family has a Christmas eve tradition of watching Christmas movies, eating Christmas cookies, and drinking hot chocolate in our Christmas pajamas.  We also get our stockings as a pre-Christmas gift. But on Christmas day my siblings and I normally go see a movie. We don’t care what’s in theaters we find something to watch on Christmas day. 

  1. What tops your tree?

A large red bow as shown in the photo above. I lost my pretty gold angel during my moving process. (Tears) She was so gorgeous!

  1. As a kid what was the one (crazy, wild, extravagant) gift you always asked for but never received?

I asked for a Chevy Tahoe when I was fifteen. I didn’t even have a  license yet but I felt like I needed that Tahoe. Later, I settled for an all black 2006 Chevy Impala with a rear spoiler. I didn’t get that for Christmas either but I did get a silver Impala as an high school graduation gift. So it all worked in my favor in the end. Lol

  1. What’s the best part about Christmas for you?

The best part about Christmas is spending time with my family. The holidays are more important to me now that my siblings and I are all grown because we all live in different cities. So for the holidays we all get together and just have a great time with one another. The holidays makes me want to convince all of my relatives to move back to our hometown so we can see each other more often. I also love sharing our traditions with our babies (my nieces and nephews) and watching their eyes light up in excitement at all of the gifts they received. It’s my favorite time of the year.

  1. What’s your favorite Christmas song?

Top five, top five, top five. (in drake voice) I mean I don’t know if you are familiar with the song I’m referencing but every time I say top 5 I think of that Drake adlib but anywayyyyy. I have a top 5 list of favorite Christmas songs and this list isn’t in any particular order but they are my favorite!

  • Sleigh Ride by TLC. I love this song because it was so fun and upbeat.
  • All I want for Christmas by Mariah Carey is a classic and it just can’t be left off the list.
  • This Christmas by Chris Brown. You can’t say he didn’t start that song slanging! I love his version.
  • The Christmas Song (Chestnuts Roasting on a Open Fire) by Nat King Cole. 
  • Silent Night By Temptations. My daddy has been playing this Temptations Christmas album the entire month of December since I could remember. Between Temptations and the Luther Vandross Christmas album I don’t know which I heard the most. 😒
  1. Can you name all of Santa’s reindeer?

At this very moment, not at all. I did know the song when I was younger but yep all I know about is Rudolph.

My festive living room this year! 


Oh and my mom pulled out the old embarrassing Christmas pictures of us. Thought I’d share with you even though my big little sister will see this and have a mild heart attack. I love you sissy Lol Happy Holidays everyone!

Artists You Should Be Listening To: The Grammy Edition

In honor of the Grammy nominations that dropped this past week, I thought this would be the perfect way to highlight my favorite R&B singers right now. All four of these artists were nominated this year and my heart swelled with joy. I’m so excited that these talented group of men are finally being highlighted for their talent. So here we have it: three artists that you should be listening to. If you are already tuned in, shout out to you for having great taste in music. But if you don’t know about these three soulful guys continue reading.

BJ the Chicago Kid

BJ was nominated for best R&B artist, best R&B performance for Turning Me Up, and best traditional R&B performance for Woman’s World. Now this man here has been one of my favorites for a long time now. Some may know him from his hit song “Church” or his feature on Schoolboy Q’s single “Studio”, but he has been on the scene for a while now. BJ brings that old school R&B and soul that our parents, aunts, and uncles used to rant about. He puts you in the mind of a D’Angelo, Marvin Gaye, Teddy Pendergrass. BJ makes the good music that’s good for your soul and your heart. I see people on social media complaining that there aren’t any good R&B artists out now and days but they must haven’t heard about BJ. He is bringing back the R&B soul and we are loving every minute of it. Check out his latest album “In My Mind,” his first “Pineapple now and laters”, a couple of EPS, and his SoundCloud page for his amazing tribute to D’angelo and other soulful jams. BJ dropped a new song last week titled, “Uncle Marvin.” Hopefully this means more new music!




Ro James

Most people recognize the name and the sultry voice from his radio hit “Permission” which landed Ro James his first grammy nomination for best R&B performance. Ro James is fairly new to the scene but we are still excited to see what else he has to bring to R&B. His unique sounds puts you in the mind of Prince, Bilal, and a bit of Deangelo. His debut album titled Eldorado is filled with jams such as “Already Know That”, A.D.I.D.A.S”, “Everything” and “New Religion.” Eldorado is definitely one of the albums you can vibe to whether you’re on a road trip with friends or cleaning the house. Check out clips from Ro James instagram below.




Anderson .Paak

Anderson Paak was nominated twice for best new artist and best urban contemporary album. Anderson Paak isn’t an artist that we can box into just one music category. So we’re just going to say that he’s a soulful dude. Whether he’s singing and/or rapping on the track, you better believe it’s soulful. Paak’s unique sound puts him in a league of his own.  I really can’t put into words what I feel about Anderson Paak. Just know that he’s a must listen! His latest album “Malibu” has a song for every mood that you’re in. Some of my favorites include “The Bird,” “The Waters,” “Heart Don’t Stand  Chance,” “The Season/Carry Me,” “Without You,” and “Silicon Valley.” Malibu and Venice is available on spotify, apple music, and soundcloud. Anderson Paak recently formed a group with Knxwledge called NxWorries. Their latest collaboration album titled Yes Lawd which is also available on spotify and apple music.



Finding Your Inner Peace



I realized I’m at peace when I’m surrounded by nature. I love sitting in the park, taking in everything that makes nature beautiful. The trees swaying in the wind, the rustling of leaves blowing in the wind, birds chirping animatedly creating their own music, the rippling sound of water in the lake. Nature is something magical and it’s beauty puts my mind, body, and soul at ease. Recently, I visited the Hamilton Pool near Austin, Texas and fell in love with nature once again. The hike was a half mile down to the pool and throughout the hike I got the chance to take in the beauty of the unique park. Hamilton pool is surrounded by a very unique natural area.

Upon making it to the actual pool, I stood amazed at the picturesque area before me. The waterfall, the lake, the giant rocks that many people accompanied as they too sat amazed by the beautiful site, and the greenery. The weather was perfect, not too hot and not too cool. The mist from the waterfall made my hair puffy but it was refreshing none the less.

I found a vacant rock near the top of the pool, where I had a beautiful view of the land. I sat there for hours at peace. Staring. Thinking. Breathing. Relaxing. Reevaluating. Letting go. Nature had a way of cleansing my soul. Before I decided to take this hike, my mind was racing a mile a minute but after sitting and letting my senses run wild; I was relaxed. I felt free. My mind was clear. It was the same feeling I got from meditation. I was refreshed and I loved that feeling.

I’m on a journey to finding my inner peace. So I’m posing this question to my readers. What brings you peace? What puts you at ease? I would love to hear your thoughts.


Views of the Hamilton Pool in Dripping springs, Texas.

The Walking trail.


Introducing QUEENsized


Slim. Big. Skinny. Fat. Petite. Plus size. Your size doesn’t matter because you’re a queen.

So why not call us Queensized. I mean it makes perfect sense, right? Right! I hate how society’s view on body image has created so many body shamers. Whenever I’m on social media, all I ever see is negative images about size. She’s too big for this, doesn’t have the body for that, she’s too skinny, she doesn’t have enough of this or that. It’s sickening. Social media is full of body shamers and it’s downright disgusting.

We weren’t made to look the same but somehow the world we live in wants us all to conform to be the perfect Barbie doll. We aren’t all supposed to be a size four with enough hips, butt, and boobs to impress shallow men. It’s sad that women aren’t comfortable enough with themselves that they go under the knife to get the perfect figure that goes along with the current beauty standards. I’ll be the first to admit, i wish my stomach was a bit smaller and my arms weren’t as flabby, but I love me. I love what makes me different and sets me apart from the rest. I learned to love my stomach, my flabby arms, my chunky face, and my not so round butt. I could stand to shed a few extra pounds but I won’t kill myself to impress this shallow world that we live in. I’m sick of seeing women kill themselves to fit in. Bigger butts, smaller waists, bigger boobs all courtesy of the Instagram-famous Dr. Miami. No shade to Dr. Miami at all because I will be the first to admit that I too follow him on snapchat. The transformations are amazing but the shapes that the women are getting are so standardized that I feel like I can pick them out of a line up. Line 5 women up against the wall and I will point Dr. Miami’s signature figure out!

Why are women always under scrutiny? If we all listened to society and the men of the world, we aren’t ever enough. Slim girls aren’t thick enough, big girls aren’t slim enough. Little boobs, you need bigger ones so get implants. Butt isn’t big enough, go to Miami and get the Dr. Miami big booty special. Waist isn’t snatched? Dr. Miami takes care of that too! Blondes have more fun, like brunettes are dry and boring. Afros are too edgy and make you look not groomed. . . well I’m just going to let that one go because getting into different types of hair is a different story (enters eye rolling emoji). But the point I’m trying to make here is that we are all different, we are unique, we come in all shades of color, and different sizes. But that’s what makes us beautiful. Be your own kind of beautiful and love yourself. If you don’t love yourself, who will?

Shout out to all the beautiful women in the world. Wherever you are, you are beautiful. You are a queen. Let’s get rid of the negative stigmas with size and just call ourselves QUEENsized.

Keep your head held high and wear your crown proudly!

Love QUEENsized,