Anxiety. I hate this shit!
I hate lying in bed awake with dry, burning eyes, because I’m sleep deprived, but my thoughts are running so rampantly that all I could do is lay there feeling anxious. Sometimes I can’t even pinpoint where the anxiety stems from. It’s like a light switch pops on some days and fucks my day up. I have been really struggling with my anxiety for a couple of years now. Sleepless nights and long tired days have become the norm for me.
At one point, I was becoming so anxious, that I didn’t want to do anything. I went to work and came back home; that’s it. I was just so paranoid and anxious being in a new city and meeting new people. But, that phase passed after about six months. I began meditation, crystal healing, did some soul searching and prayed harder than I’d ever had before. I decided I couldn’t live my life in a box. That had never been me. I had always been a person who enjoying going places and just having fun.
I just can’t deal with anything negative. I’ve learned to combat negativity with positivity and I had to change my way of thinking. I had to learn to not take other people’s negativity personally, because it had nothing to do with me and more to do with them. I learned that in order to protect my peace, I had to part ways with all negative energy. Sometimes some of your closest friends and family members are that negative energy, that you shouldn’t allow in your space. I have to be particular who I allow to share my energy and space with.
In order to live a happy, stress free life I must keep my anxiety at bay and protect myself from negativity.
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